So Tuesday I see my Urologist to discuss my treatment plan. Plan of attack as I would call it against this prostate cancer thing. Waiting, is the hard part. Don’t really want to talk about me. Many, many, many people are dealt a lot more difficult a hand than I have. I don’t really know how to react right now, except I think about my grandchildren a lot. Watching my 4 month year old granddaughter last night was good therapy. She had me in total smile mode. I hadn’t seen her smile and giggle as much as she did last night. She is beautiful as are my other seven grandchildren. My advice to my grandsons, “Eat lots of tomatoes!”
Went to the driving range today, hit bucket of balls. The hooks were just slight draws, no fades. No pressure, who cares where the ball goes, just relax and hit the hell out of it. Then went fishing. Caught 3 Bass, two pretty small and 1 just under size. I released them, go grow up, I’ll be back. That is a promise.
Have known I have a high PSA count for about a year now. I had a prostate biopsy done last week, and yesterday got the call from my Urologist. Yep, I have prostate cancer. The next step is a bone scan tomorrow. Then, my significant other and I will meet with the Doc to discuss treatment (of course much will still be determined from the scan).
I was looking around in Bass Pro Shop when I received the call, had a rod and reel in my hand, then became disinterested after the call. Went home, to gather my thoughts, really just became PISSED! Still pissed! Angry pissed! I have no problem going to the bath room, that symptom is not present. So, currently I am really just dealing with the anger management part. Why am I angry? I’ve always been pretty healthy. I just completed my 12 week recovery from open heart surgery, where I had my Aortic Valve replaced and aneurysm repaired. This condition was genetic, I was born with a bi-cuspid aortic valve, rather than a tri-cuspid valve. That’s taken care of! i was back to playing golf! NOW THIS FREAKING CANCER CRAP!
I know other people suffer and deal with much more than I am. That doesn’t escape me. I am grateful, thankful there are options. My thought for today is not a single thought. Much is going through my head. I will deal with this and get it taken care of. It just ticks me off, we have to spend time getting evaluated and fixed; like time is being robbed from us. Maintenance, like I’m an automobile or machine.
I will keep on ticking. Thanks for letting me sound off! Now I’m going fishing.
Seriously, I woke up and my first thought….okay, meaningful thought was: I am beginning to understand older people more each day. What they do and don’t do. What is important and unimportant. Whether grammar is school book perfect or not……
I don’t care that I am clean shaven just to go to the store. I don’t care as much that my clothes don’t match perfectly to go to Walmart. Geez does that mean I am understanding older shoppers at Walmart. That’s scary……….. I hate Walmart. Yes I said hate. I only go there for their tiny, under-grown nightcrawlers, until I find a place with bigger ones, or have time to dig my own.
Maybe the fishing is about to turn for the better. Saw some bass today near the banks in shallow water, pre-spawning period. Trouble was, I was playing golf, not fishing. While walking along the cart path near the edge of a couple of the courses lakes, I spotted a few bass for the first time this spring. Just yesterday nothing, not even a minnow.
Since the end of February, I have been out fishing six times. Today and the last couple of times out, the weather has been perfect. I wish the fishing were as good as the weather. The last Missouri fishing report was only fair for the lakes and slow on the rivers, Cat & bass both!
I had a few bites yesterday on nightcrawlers (those poor pathetic Canadian crawlers) and a couple today. Just nibblers it seems. I’ve been bank fishing, so most of the fish must still be pretty deep. Not much activity around the banks, not seeing minnows or anything. Seems like the water temps are warm enough it should be getting better. It maybe, but seems really slow. I had better success as kid, when I just threw a nightcrawler to the bottom without a bobber.
Read an article this morning on the Canadian Nightcrawlers vs. European. Canadian is bigger? Not sure there is a difference between a European Nightcrawler and an American Nightcrawler; no mention of the good ol USA crawler in the article. Here is my latest experience with the Canadian big worm……….the ones you buy at Wal-Mart ain’t so big……..yes we say ain’t in Missouri.
I won’t be getting Canadian Crawlers from Wal-Mart again. I made this purchase about 4 weeks ago and they were a very disappointing 3 inches long when I opened the carton. That maybe okay for kids fishing for pan fish……..but I’m looking for Cat and Bass.
You can get a nice big juicy American Crawler in your back yard and you don’t have to go deep in the turf to find them. You can find them crawling around your yard after a nice little rain shower as well.
Don’t have a spot in your yard you can dig? Take a small spade (shovel) to the river or lake, turnover some soil on the bank and touche! Gold!!! Don’t dig up your city or county park though!!!
Yes, I’m going fishing; after I go turn the spade in our flower garden. American Crawlers can not be beat.
This is a hell of a lot more fun than talking politics. Can you picture Rachel Maddow fishing? Just asking…………
Went fishing with some new fishing gear this morning on the banks of the Missouri near St. Charles, MO. It was a beautiful day…….temps in the 40s (about 37 degrees when I started), sun shining. Lets just say I broke in the new equipment. Came home empty…….hardly a nibble.