So Tuesday I see my Urologist to discuss my treatment plan. Plan of attack as I would call it against this prostate cancer thing. Waiting, is the hard part. Don’t really want to talk about me. Many, many, many people are dealt a lot more difficult a hand than I have. I don’t really know how to react right now, except I think about my grandchildren a lot. Watching my 4 month year old granddaughter last night was good therapy. She had me in total smile mode. I hadn’t seen her smile and giggle as much as she did last night. She is beautiful as are my other seven grandchildren. My advice to my grandsons, “Eat lots of tomatoes!”
Went to the driving range today, hit bucket of balls. The hooks were just slight draws, no fades. No pressure, who cares where the ball goes, just relax and hit the hell out of it. Then went fishing. Caught 3 Bass, two pretty small and 1 just under size. I released them, go grow up, I’ll be back. That is a promise.
Hope you all had a great Friday!
Have known I have a high PSA count for about a year now. I had a prostate biopsy done last week, and yesterday got the call from my Urologist. Yep, I have prostate cancer. The next step is a bone scan tomorrow. Then, my significant other and I will meet with the Doc to discuss treatment (of course much will still be determined from the scan).
I was looking around in Bass Pro Shop when I received the call, had a rod and reel in my hand, then became disinterested after the call. Went home, to gather my thoughts, really just became PISSED! Still pissed! Angry pissed! I have no problem going to the bath room, that symptom is not present. So, currently I am really just dealing with the anger management part. Why am I angry? I’ve always been pretty healthy. I just completed my 12 week recovery from open heart surgery, where I had my Aortic Valve replaced and aneurysm repaired. This condition was genetic, I was born with a bi-cuspid aortic valve, rather than a tri-cuspid valve. That’s taken care of! i was back to playing golf! NOW THIS FREAKING CANCER CRAP!
I know other people suffer and deal with much more than I am. That doesn’t escape me. I am grateful, thankful there are options. My thought for today is not a single thought. Much is going through my head. I will deal with this and get it taken care of. It just ticks me off, we have to spend time getting evaluated and fixed; like time is being robbed from us. Maintenance, like I’m an automobile or machine.
I will keep on ticking. Thanks for letting me sound off! Now I’m going fishing.
Below is the Fox News link on the “Jeffrey Epstein suicide”.
How does someone, especially with this huge of a profile commit suicide while on SUICIDE WATCH? Someone is watching him 24/7. There would be video surveillance. So, where is the video? Rumors, and so far they are just that, claim the video is conveniently missing. On suicide watch, there are no materials in the cell that would enable the prisoner to commit suicide. No bed sheets, no shoe strings. Nothing! Prisoners on suicide watch wear (normally wear) paper clothing.
I am not buying this for one damn minute. Lots of suicides from people who have associations with the rich and powerful. Don’t you agree Bill and Hillary? Bill and Hillary certainly know a lot of people that have committed suicide. This is not normal! And oh the timing of it. Names would have been or are about to be released. I guarantee the list of names associated with Jeffrey Epstein is longer than we now even know.