When anxiety is great within you, turn to Me for consolation. Other words for “consolation” are comfort, compassion, empathy, help, encouragement, reassurance, and relief. I gladly provide all of this—and much more—for My children. Yet your natural tendency when you’re feeling anxious is to focus on yourself or your problems. The more you do this, […]Jesus Always — Three Iron Nails
I don’t think it was an accident that I found this particular post, during a moment I was feeling impatience, some anger, and maybe a bit of self pity. I must have been searching for something, as I was also thinking I haven’t spoken to God much lately, especially when I needed him the most. I remembered too I hadn’t thanked the Lord that my prostate surgery (a little over a week ago) had gone perfectly and that my pathology report showed I was now cancer free. It was confined in the prostate and had not spread anywhere else. While I was extremely grateful, I hadn’t spoken to God, and realized it during my moment of impatience and anger. Then I felt guilty.
I came to my computer to search for information in addition to what my doctor has advised because of my feelings. Why do I feel impatient, angry, and annoyed? I am experiencing these feelings during my early recovery period, which is about 4-5 weeks. I won’t go into detail, except there are some inconveniences, annoying body malfunctions that should improve over time, but like I said I am impatient. I also know it could take a year to improve and I may never be 100% again. See how easy it is to feel sorry for yourself? I feel ashamed as there are children suffering from cancer and many will not survive, yet I am bothered by this INCONVENIENCE. These inconveniences are normal things you deal with following prostate surgery. But, things I haven’t dealt with before. I am dealing with it and it won’t last forever, I just don’t have much patience. It isn’t one of my greatest attributes.
I do thank God for being one of the fortunate ones. I pray for everyone suffering from cancer and other disease. How quickly we can forget that God never leaves us. But we must call on him, call His name to praise Him, to thank Him, and yes to ask for help, if only for patience and strength. I don’t think it was an accident I found this post “Jesus Always” – (Thank you to Three Iron Nails) just moments after these feelings and possibly doubt. I needed a reminder. The Lord delivered!